Goodbye, Zoe

Zoe died last night. We had an appointment for her at the clinic today.  I’m afraid her colon got her in the end and I feel absolutely terrible that I couldn’t save her.  Zoe was a wonderful, wickedly intelligent, bright little rat who could light up a room.  She’ll be missed so very much.  I’m still crying whenever I think or talk about her and I just cannot cope with condolences, so I’ve disabled comments. They are appreciated, I’m just feeling too fragile at the moment, when I’m not being angry as hell at myself for not being able to do more.  I miss you, Zoe.